This has been a long overdue update but....: winning! Haha
Despite some of the let downs in recent months (or I guess the last year really) this last month or so has been filled with a ton of positives. Mostly, turns out that overly positive (to the point of obnoxious ^_*) boyfriend, has been really good for me & really good TO me. Which, I've come to find out, is really exactly what I needed.
On another note, I've been thinking about my dad a lot lately, especially since I just came back from a trip to Forks this last weekend & a bunch of the friends I graduated with are now getting married. Seeing their dads & hearing about their relationships made me miss the fact that mine's not around any longer. But, as much as I hate to say it, I think it's been for the better. Sometimes though, I think if my dad were still alive, him & I would be getting along really well. He'd probably be riding motorcycles with me & help me get the house fixed up for my mom. I guess I just realized I'm actually a lot like him, both good and bad--I can have a bad temper & get pretty irritable at times & I also detest clutter & people who don't help out (aka lazy people) BUT I am generous with my time & resources to those in need. I also enjoy adventures & trying new things & love meeting new people. In general, just having a good time & trying not to sweat the small stuff. My dad was like that.
I won't go into all of the negatives about my dad though. I'm trying to learn to "taste my words before I spit them out" & "think before you speak: T is it True? Is it Helpful? Is it Inspiring? Is it Necessary? Is it Kind?"
Unfortunately there are all kinds of people in the world & many of us are dealing with all sorts of demons both personal & otherwise-sometimes it gets so jumbled up I'm not sure what I believe anymore...but, "Don't be so open-minded, your brains fall out" & "If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything." I really believe that.
Life is good. I love getting to know my boyfriend better & everyday I feel like little by little he's helping me heal up some old wounds & giving me exactly what I need in life right now.
I'm in a great place & I just wanted to share that with the WWW.
So I shall leave you all with this:
"I honor the place in you in which the entire universe dwells. I honor the place in you which is of love, of truth, of light, and of peace. When you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, we are one."